The truth

Last night was so hang man seriously but i dont wana talk abt it, gotta solve it on my own. This post is for my razan and nobody else. You are welcomed to read it but know that its for her.

When i wake up every morning the first thought that is in my mind is you. When i roll over and see the empty side of my bed i often wonder how great it would be if i woke up to your eyes, to your smile. I can think for hours before i have to get out of bed. I know this might sound abit sad but every night before i go to bed i always have to look at your picture before i drift off to sleep, that is kinda why your always my wallpaper baby.

You are the only girl that can make me feel the way i do now, loved like no other. You can make me smile like no one can and you can make me have a good laugh like nobody can. Im the type of person that always needs someone to talk to and im luck to have you to share all my secrets and dreams with.

Im a hard nut to crack i usually just keep all the true feelings inside of me but with you i become undone and show you the real me. Some people dont like the real me but you do :) i love you for not trying to change me.

I have undoubtable love for you, ill give or do anything for you. Ill run all the miles so i can reach you where ever you maybe. Where ever we are in the world just look into your heart and thats where you will find me

I love you Razan forever and always

jgn tah ber title

im kinda pissed off now. im sorry for starting the post of like this but what the hell. ngalih ku kan post anything bye

I will always be yours

I dont even know where to begin to talk abt what has happened since i last bloged. I'll start with the good, in like 8min is my 9th aniversarry with my wonderfull baby razan :))))) i cant imagine life without her. In these 9 months i have what you could say witnessed almost every sitiuation imaginable. I have seen all emotions happiness, sadness, tears, laughters and so much more.

My baby razan has eyes that are so unbelievable, if you know her the way i do you would know what i am talking abt. Through her eyes you would know if she is happy or not, if she is telling the truth and to me i can see that she loves me without even saying it. All of this might not mean anything to anyone but it means everything to me, she means everything to me.

Take for granted i shall not because i know that anything can easily be taken away from you in a blink of an eye. Everyday and evey second i treasure when i am with you baby. never take each other for granted because that is just simply not the way to be.

I belive that believing plays an important role in a relationship because it takes two to stere the wheel of love in the right direction. Have no or little room for doubt in your relationship because the world is feeled enough with doubt. I can truely say that i have no doubts at all and i am greatful with what i have with razan.

Ive mentioned this over and over again that i am not a perfect guy. I might not have the looks of a perfect guy nor have the attitude to be one but i am what i am i dont think i can change it and i dont think razan would change it either. Thats the thing razan has accepted me with my list long flaws and i am ever so greatful for that.

What Is A Soul Mate?
If you have found a smilethat is the sweetest one you've known,If you have heard, within a voice,the echoes of your own,If you have felt a touchthat stirs the longings of your heart,And still can feel that closenessin the moments you're apart,If you have filled with wonderat the way two lives can blendTo weave a perfect patternthat is seamless, end to end,If you believe some things in lifeare simply meant to be,Then you have found your soul mate,your heart's own destiny.

© Emily Matthews

I love you razan happy 9 months

Not really understanding

I know this might sound wierd but why is it i feel bad now. i just read something and it really made me feel down. I have always tried to be always there when someone needs me, i have always try to do right and i think ive tried to be all that i can be. What is it i am doing wrong? what is it? please tell me, because i dont know. Im sorry for always being in the wrong.

To my baby razan. when i was out all day on friday i was always thinking of you all along the way. when you msged me that you were online i wanted to do nothing but find my way back home and be online with you but scince i was with my parents and everything i couldnt exactly do that even though i wanted to so bad. As soon as i got home i went straight to my room and went online hoping and wishing that you will be there but there was a slim chance scince i sort of figured that you were online for quite abit in the afternoon.

So i just wana say that i am sorry abt that. and the translation to "la verdad, no es importa" is " the truth is not important"

P.S. to the teacher i was rood at this morning IM SORRY

I LOVE YOU RAZAN SO MUCH,
there is nothing i want more than to be with you,
im always thinking abt you, im always missing you,
forever and always

hey

I am in no mood to wright anything.

I love you razan :)

Feeling rather not so good

I was just searching online earlier for universities in great britain that interested me and i took a glimps at the requirement grades and they were like AAB what the fuck!!! im like worrying like hell whats going to happen to me after my A-levels are over. Am i going to make it?? That is the questions going on in my mind now. What happens if i dont quiet make it?? what is going to be in store for me?? see what i mean by being worried...



Im trying to go for civil or structural enginnering. For obvious reasons, have you seen Brunei's buildings? most of them are crap or duplicates. The buildings here have no cutting edge designs, no personallity, no challenges on the builders and mostly the buildings here lack character. With all the money this country has i dont understand why the hell we dont have these types of mega structures. Brunei is falling behind so far behind to so many other countries. comon miri is starting to look better than Brunei, talk about pethatic. Miri used to be like a slum and look at it now?



It comes into question where does our money actually go? Because i cant see us moving forward, can you? dont get me wrong we have had some advances but at a snails paste

P.S. Get well soon baby, i miss you so much
I love you razan

razan here.

this is for the perfect day i had yesterday. thanks so much sayang.. we found my dream popsicle! i acutally want a cylinder shaped popsicle but oh well... hehe. I LOVE YOU!

anyway, its Razan here. i am here because ONE, i need to apologize. u see, i was err.. u know sorting out this blog here. i separated two different posts because it looked like it was being posted in a day. which Ali totally didnt. my baby uploaded those two posts on different days. BUT, whilst separating those posts. i lost the first one. and i am truly and deeply sorry. it was a post on the picture of MALDIVES; where you're gona take me. SORRY :( i am so sorry baby.

and TWO, to get back to you. i uploaded these special Maldives pictures. for you.. i'd love to go there with you. i love you very much.