hey

I am in no mood to wright anything.

I love you razan :)

Feeling rather not so good

I was just searching online earlier for universities in great britain that interested me and i took a glimps at the requirement grades and they were like AAB what the fuck!!! im like worrying like hell whats going to happen to me after my A-levels are over. Am i going to make it?? That is the questions going on in my mind now. What happens if i dont quiet make it?? what is going to be in store for me?? see what i mean by being worried...



Im trying to go for civil or structural enginnering. For obvious reasons, have you seen Brunei's buildings? most of them are crap or duplicates. The buildings here have no cutting edge designs, no personallity, no challenges on the builders and mostly the buildings here lack character. With all the money this country has i dont understand why the hell we dont have these types of mega structures. Brunei is falling behind so far behind to so many other countries. comon miri is starting to look better than Brunei, talk about pethatic. Miri used to be like a slum and look at it now?



It comes into question where does our money actually go? Because i cant see us moving forward, can you? dont get me wrong we have had some advances but at a snails paste

P.S. Get well soon baby, i miss you so much
I love you razan

razan here.

this is for the perfect day i had yesterday. thanks so much sayang.. we found my dream popsicle! i acutally want a cylinder shaped popsicle but oh well... hehe. I LOVE YOU!

anyway, its Razan here. i am here because ONE, i need to apologize. u see, i was err.. u know sorting out this blog here. i separated two different posts because it looked like it was being posted in a day. which Ali totally didnt. my baby uploaded those two posts on different days. BUT, whilst separating those posts. i lost the first one. and i am truly and deeply sorry. it was a post on the picture of MALDIVES; where you're gona take me. SORRY :( i am so sorry baby.

and TWO, to get back to you. i uploaded these special Maldives pictures. for you.. i'd love to go there with you. i love you very much.

A perfect day

Today is a day that i will always remember :) Locked up in a little memory chest in my heart.I'll start from the start. I woke up kinda feeling really out of it, i actually wanted to just curl up warm and go back to sleep hehe... yeah right. I was kinda worried when i got to school because i had a chemistry test on Arenes man such a confusing topic, i hope i did good enough on it. Then i went to maths and saw my one and only there,once again during class i found myself worrying again abt my exams, its approching so fast.

razan and i went back to my house and we had so much fun. To me there is nothing better than having alone time with the one you truely love. We all need that time to appreciate the one you love a bit more, to talk abt anything and everything, to look into her eyes, to take that opertunity to show your love one how much that you love them. There is no better feeling then this, a feeling of being in love, the feeling of security and the feeling of just being you is enough.

I love you razan

and p.s. can we have a house like this :)

Pics :)

Long day out

Im finally home... It has been a long and exausting day today. My day sort of started off like this, i woke up at ard 12 30 in the morning with such an unberable pain in my throught and i couldnt even go to sleep properly after that till i went to school. I said to mum that i seriously need something for this pain, which would mean i would have to the slowest ever clinic in the world. So mum kinda presuaded dad in letting me use the car to drive myself to the clinic during my free periods hehe... I got back in time to take my baby razan out to lunch, i didnt quite go the way i wanted it to but at least i got to spend time with my forever and always :) that is what matters to me the most. Then later on in the afternoon i went to a MOE talk abt unis' and how to apply for a scholership. The talk didnt end till like 4 15pm. On the way home i was stuck in traffic all the way home. i had just like haly an hour to get ready to go to the palace for the santap thingy.

The food was great and yes razan their were big prawns :) nyaman... Waiting for sultan to shake hands with everyone took ages which was kinda understandable since there were thausands of ppl there hehe... While waitting to go i had this funny fealing come over me that there was something up with my baby razan, so i msged her straight away to make sure that she was doing alright. You could call me parinoid in doing that but i cant breath easily if that feeling is on my mind.

Then at abt quater to 12 we started leaving the palace and started to head back home. But the traffic was bad, so whilst waiting for the jam to clear up, one of my friends called MR A needed someone to talk to so i gave him my attention since he is going through such a bad time at the moment. When i finally reached home sweet home it was alredy like a few min to 1.

I miss you so much razan i really do. i would give anyting to be by your side now

I LOVE YOU,
Forever and always #86

Forever and always

Today was a great day man seriously, i actually planed on taking my baby razan out to a nice lunch for our 8th aniversary tomorrow :) but there was a last miniute crises that couldnt be avoided so we had an extra two ppl hehe... I didnt mind really since razans friend was in need of a chearing up, but we still had fun anyway. Gila its been 8 months for razan and i :) If someone asked me at this very moment if i would change anything between razan and i, i would say "no". We have had a few bumps along the way but we have also had so many good times that i will forever treasure in my heart.

I still find myself breathless when i describe my love for razan but here ill try it again. When i am with her everything wrong in the world just fall into place, all that is bad turns good and all that is good turns even better. When i am in need of someone to talk to i know i can always turn to her because ill know she will understand me even if she doesnt understand me she will at least make an effort to. She knows how to speak to my heart ever so soft and sweet and even if i get mad she knows how to calm me down.

I trust my baby razan with all my heart and with all my dreams because i know it will be kept safe in her arms. Being in her presents without even saying a single word still comforts me. So if you ask me how much i love razan, i cant answer you because there is not a word or a comparison feeling that is strong enough to describe how much i love her.

I know she will believe in me when nobody else will. I know she will be by myside through it all the good and the bad. I can go on forever telling you how much i love razan but ill leave you with this poem to show how much i love her

Sonnet 60 "Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore"
Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore, So do our minutes hasten to their end, Each changing place with that which goes beforeIn sequent toil all forwards do contend. Nativity, once in the main of light, Crawls to maturity, wherewith, being crowned, Crooked eclipses 'gainst his glory fight And Time that gave, doth now his gift confound. Time doth transfix the flourish set on youth, And delves the parallels in beauty's brow, Feeds on the rarities of natures truth, And nothing stands but for his scythe to mow; And yet, to times, in hope, my verse shall stand, Praising thy worth, despite his cruel hand.
William Shakespeare
(1564 - 1616)

I LOVE YOU RAZAN

The start to be the person i was

I wright this blog just to let my feelings out, instead of letting it consume me and abdsorb all my happiness away. So i wright here when i find myself in a position that words cannot be said. Today i found myself in a sitiuation where saying sorry is not good enough, in a sitiuation where saying "i love you" are just not the right words to say. Ive been thinking long and hard on how to make things right again but i came across a cold hard truth, that is what has been done is done and there is nothing i can say or do to change it. So im here trying to make a difference in myself, trying to undo the bad things i have become. I am pleeding and beging you to trust me once again and to let me in your ever so fragile heart.I know i am not a perfect guy, im actually far from it ,so please forgive me because i am bound to make mistakes along the way but trust me that i will learn from them and be a better person

I LOVE YOU razan, always have and always will

Trying to blog haha

Man im so lost. idont know what i am doing here, help razan hehe...