How much razan means to me

Im gona be leaving in about 6 days :'( How am i gona do this? its gona be the longest month of my life. The fact of not having the freedom to call, msg or even see my sayang as often as i want is just gona kill me.Im going out of my mind just thinking of it.

The seconds are gona feel like hours and the hours are gona feel like years. But all and all we can take it baby, i trust you and you trust me and that is all that matters.

Baby do you wonder why i always talk about seeing the moon or the stars? Where ever you and i maybe we will always be looking at the same moon or star, knowing that i always search to catch a glipse of it to feel that much closer to you hun bun.

Everynight while im there ill say "goodnight and i love you sayang" to you wishing and hopeing you will hear it. I believe that the heart is an amazing thing and i believe that if you say it with all your heart and soul every heart can hear it nomatter where you are.

Never loose faith sayang because i will come back to your arms no doubt i will. Just promise me that you wont get use to not having me around because i will always need you sayang.

I think i should stop now because im getting kinda teary because ill miss ever so much. Here is a poem that best discribes the way i feel

Love Is ...

Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.

- Meghan -

in our little dreamland.

i love you...

I love you

Its amazing how life passes you by so quickly, it felt just like yesterday that i was in grade school but im actually now in pre-uni. People come and go in my life but there is only one person that slows time down, one person that i constantly wana be with , one person that i love with all my heart and i know she is not gona go anywhere.

She once ask me why do i love her? its kinda of an easy question. I love my razan because she is beautiful, smart and sofisticated eventhough she dennys every one of them. I love her because its amazing how she obsesses over little things that might not matter to anyone else but it does to her. She always fights for what she believes is right. I love her because eventhough im like the lammest person to talk to she always gives me the time and day to listen to me. I love her because everyday there is always something new that happens. I love her because of the way she imbrasess change unlike me. I love her because she is so easy to talk to. I love her nomatter how bad i mess up she always finds it her heart to forgive me. I love her because she lets me in more then anyone. I love her because eventhough i try to do everything for her she always wana do it for herself. I love you razan because you bring out all that is good and sweet in me. I can go on and on but basically I love everything about you razan everything. Forever and and always baby

Happy 10th aniversarry boo, a life time to go :))

Sonnet 43 - How do I love thee? Let me count the ways by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.I love thee to the depth and breadth and heightMy soul can reach, when feeling out of sightFor the ends of Being and ideal Grace.I love thee to the level of everyday'sMost quiet need, by sun and candle-light.I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.I love thee with the passion put to useIn my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.I love thee with the breath,Smiles, tears, of all my life

A memory that can not be deleted, a memory that is permanently imbeded in your mind and can be tregered at any time. What im trying to say here is that with every step i make with you boo its a memory that ill keep forever.

Definition of forever is spending a life time and iternaty with the one you love, well thats my definition anyway. The choice of forever is in your hands, i believe that when you believe forever is possible dont ever let it go because if you want it, it will happen.

I believe forever you and me boo, forever and always. Forever is not an easy word to say but im saying it because i want forever. I know i meet the girl of my dreams and i know she is the one who i wana be by my said forever.

Forever to love to hold, to share all of my hopes and dreams with. To build a life with, a home and a family

FOREVER and ALWAYS RAZAN
I LOVE YOU BOO
HAPPY 10 MONTHS

I miss you

I just got my mock exam results yesterday i got a U U D i think. Those U's were not like almost passes, they were horibbly done papers with pittyful marks. Seriously i am so entah eh, who the hell gets that low.

Have you ever felt that what ever you do is just not good enough? because thats how i feel now. Adang tia eh about that, sanak sudah.

I havent seen my baby for the whole day today and i miss her so much, and i mean so much. I hate it when im not with her because i feel like im not being there for her. I like to be always be by your side so that you need not go far to find a person you need to talk to, a person you can fall back on.

im sorry my post is kinda short, kinda tired tonight

I love you so much Razan

The truth

Last night was so hang man seriously but i dont wana talk abt it, gotta solve it on my own. This post is for my razan and nobody else. You are welcomed to read it but know that its for her.

When i wake up every morning the first thought that is in my mind is you. When i roll over and see the empty side of my bed i often wonder how great it would be if i woke up to your eyes, to your smile. I can think for hours before i have to get out of bed. I know this might sound abit sad but every night before i go to bed i always have to look at your picture before i drift off to sleep, that is kinda why your always my wallpaper baby.

You are the only girl that can make me feel the way i do now, loved like no other. You can make me smile like no one can and you can make me have a good laugh like nobody can. Im the type of person that always needs someone to talk to and im luck to have you to share all my secrets and dreams with.

Im a hard nut to crack i usually just keep all the true feelings inside of me but with you i become undone and show you the real me. Some people dont like the real me but you do :) i love you for not trying to change me.

I have undoubtable love for you, ill give or do anything for you. Ill run all the miles so i can reach you where ever you maybe. Where ever we are in the world just look into your heart and thats where you will find me

I love you Razan forever and always

jgn tah ber title

im kinda pissed off now. im sorry for starting the post of like this but what the hell. ngalih ku kan post anything bye